The Truth Is...

If she has learned anything at all, she has learned that:

Males and Females cannot be just friends.

She tried very hard to negate this statement but over a span of time, her thoughts and feelings began to shift.  In the beginning she referred to the Man In Her Notebook as her big brother, the two had grown close like kindred spirits.  After many conversations, jokes, and laughs she soon did what all females do, regardless if they admit it or not; she began to catch feelings.   She felt guilty about the situation because she didn’t want to ruin such a good friendship because she was falling for her friend. 

So, she did what most don’t do. She confronted the situation. She let him know how she felt, but not with the expectation that he’d feel the same in return but just so she could simply lay it on the table. She soon learned that their friendship was a unique one, it was one in which she could express just about anything without judgment.  The anxiety of telling him made her feel overwhelmed.  Expressing herself was something she was great at but expressing it to someone she was unsure about was simply terrifying. Awkwardly, the subject was originally laughed off by him and the two continued to joke and laugh; it was as if she hadn’t said anything at all and honestly she found comfort in that. They continued on with their daily conversations and she realized. That it is simply natural for women to catch feelings especially if a woman: 1) finds him to be a likeable companion 2) is attracted to him 3) invests time in him.  The feminine side of her had taken over but it’s a natural reaction in taking interest in someone.  Once she realized this, she felt more at ease because it was bound to happen; but knowing that she could tell him and everything stay the same was just the friendship she was looking for.

The inquisitive woman was always filled with questions and he had made it safe for her to ask him anything.  So she did. Anything that came to her mind, she would just ask away.  She longed for a companion and just might have found it in him.  The best friend that she had been praying for might be right there in him. But oddly enough, along with the spirit of friendship something had triggered the spirit of change.  There was something about this friendship, she didn’t want to damage. She didn’t want to be like she always was because she knew how things resulted. She felt that this friendship was somewhat unique and designed for something greater.  She’s a naturally kind and loving person but what she wanted to change the most was her desire to always be alone. Withdrawing from people and not letting them get too close is what she knew best. She believes no one lasts forever and she just holds the door open as people walk in and out of her life. But, something about him made her want to change, maybe it was because he was so easy to love.

 “It’s not hard for me to understand him because he’s so much like me. “